i say this as an adult. dont read this as if i were young. thats not what this feels like.
this has to be something different. we’ve both gone through relationships, apparently fallen in love with other people, yet we still stand. its like an underlying silent relationship that we both know will always be there. but part of me thinks that i only like the idea of him. he’s been there my whole life and i dont have anyone else i can say that about. the concept is immensely appealing but i know there has to be more to it than just that. ive come to realize that i really dont know him. i dont know his secrets or how he thinks. but is that required at this point? we both feel that untainted connection and we accept its inevitability. im scared that if i truly get to know him, the chemistry will subside. maybe this is as far as it will get. little more than strangers in love. maybe someday we’ll figure all this out.